F All That.

Any kindness that's been explicated through meekness has significantly impacted my well-being.

I no longer accept that, so it's funny to watch how the people that used to treat me like that (emotional bullies) can be blatantly dirty and shine in that regard, and how I get to watch them fall to the wayside.

When I practice intolerance to explicated kindness, how bright, open, and shiny my life can continue to be.

It makes me wonder how can someone notice their own choosiness, exclusivity, and pickiness and still treat people that way, and think that those folks they act that way towards don't see it? Emotional bullies go no further with me.

I was born and brought up in a society where people decide if they 'like' someone or not before getting to know them, and I've found myself adapting to that by bending.

Bent, bent, and bent some more, this way and that way, and now my spine is contorted because of all the shit - people-pleasing - I did; so now my backbone is quite literally shaped by all the toxic people-pleasing I've ever tried to establish any kind of firm foundation upon. It's not healthy, and if I have anything to do with changing that, I'm going to. And I'm going to do that with the kids because they're fun to work with and they're not as judgmental as adults can be.. although I've seen 8-year-olds do some really gnarly shit.

I know what people are capable of, and it's not something I'm willing to continue placating by explicating my kindness into weakness. Fuck that.

Fuck all that.

Live And Never Die, OK?